What a Valentine's Day

Valentines Day 2015 was surprising not bad, coming from an eternally single person. I am sad that I am single, and I didn't avoid being sad about that the whole day, but most of the day I had a great time with my best friend.

Last year on valentines day was the first time I had ever gotten drunk, and I spent the week leading to valentines day ready to celebrate the anniversary, which I did, but that is not what is important. What is important is that I spent the day with my best friend just having fun. I did my makeup nice, dressed comfortably and didn't plan anything. We ended up going to lunch with her parents(that are basically my parents) and then running into her brother, sister in law and their baby on the street. In a weird way I felt like that was showing me that there are other sources of love than a romantic relationship. Being at college and only coming home on the weekends make it really hard to plan a time to see my nephew so running into them and getting to see him for a little bit was just what I needed, cause man, I love that little guy so much.

My best friend and I then went and fed one of our friend's animals because they were out of town, and at their house we found the sweetest stray cat and I named her Penelope. This is another way I was shown that I don't need romantic love to be happy, because my love for animals fills me with so much joy. Although one of the toughest parts of valentines day was not being able to be with Toby, my sweet puppy.

After that we went back to her house and watched the terrible/amazing movie Another Cinderella Story and we laughed and sang the whole way through even though she doesn't really like dumb teen movies like that. Then we watched Gone Girl for the second time in her room, while I drank half a bottle of vodka, I don't recommend this, but hey, its what happened. That is the only time when I actually felt sad about being single, so it goes to show how important other love is in your life.

I have depression and anxiety, but this year I was happy on Valentines day, which is a first for me. I know that a lot of people probably had a struggle and I have been there, and here it comes...... It gets better. It's hard to admit because I have refused to believe it for so long, but at least some things, get better. I'm still depressed, I still have terrible anxiety, I still don't think I will ever get over that, but it's okay to let happiness happen.

I don't believe I deserve happiness today, but on Valentines day I did, and I had a good day.
So try to let yourself feel happy, you deserve it.

The thing that has helped me the most recently is surrounding myself with amazing people. I found a great group of friends at college and they share my humor and they like being around me, it is a great thing and it has really helped me to let myself be a little happier.

I know this is a jumble, but I hope maybe it helps someone out. I hope you all had an amazing
Valentine's day and I also hope you know it is okay if you didn't. Maybe in a year or two you will be writing about how it gets better, at least I hope you feewl that way because you deserve to be happy!

with love, thefloralwitch

What a Cute Dog

This is my sweet angel Toby. Enjoy looking at his adorable face.

I tried to think of something to write, but my brain is fried with school stuff so please leave me suggestions of things to write. 

For now, thefloralwitch

and her cute dog