What a Valentine's Day

Valentines Day 2015 was surprising not bad, coming from an eternally single person. I am sad that I am single, and I didn't avoid being sad about that the whole day, but most of the day I had a great time with my best friend.

Last year on valentines day was the first time I had ever gotten drunk, and I spent the week leading to valentines day ready to celebrate the anniversary, which I did, but that is not what is important. What is important is that I spent the day with my best friend just having fun. I did my makeup nice, dressed comfortably and didn't plan anything. We ended up going to lunch with her parents(that are basically my parents) and then running into her brother, sister in law and their baby on the street. In a weird way I felt like that was showing me that there are other sources of love than a romantic relationship. Being at college and only coming home on the weekends make it really hard to plan a time to see my nephew so running into them and getting to see him for a little bit was just what I needed, cause man, I love that little guy so much.

My best friend and I then went and fed one of our friend's animals because they were out of town, and at their house we found the sweetest stray cat and I named her Penelope. This is another way I was shown that I don't need romantic love to be happy, because my love for animals fills me with so much joy. Although one of the toughest parts of valentines day was not being able to be with Toby, my sweet puppy.

After that we went back to her house and watched the terrible/amazing movie Another Cinderella Story and we laughed and sang the whole way through even though she doesn't really like dumb teen movies like that. Then we watched Gone Girl for the second time in her room, while I drank half a bottle of vodka, I don't recommend this, but hey, its what happened. That is the only time when I actually felt sad about being single, so it goes to show how important other love is in your life.

I have depression and anxiety, but this year I was happy on Valentines day, which is a first for me. I know that a lot of people probably had a struggle and I have been there, and here it comes...... It gets better. It's hard to admit because I have refused to believe it for so long, but at least some things, get better. I'm still depressed, I still have terrible anxiety, I still don't think I will ever get over that, but it's okay to let happiness happen.

I don't believe I deserve happiness today, but on Valentines day I did, and I had a good day.
So try to let yourself feel happy, you deserve it.

The thing that has helped me the most recently is surrounding myself with amazing people. I found a great group of friends at college and they share my humor and they like being around me, it is a great thing and it has really helped me to let myself be a little happier.

I know this is a jumble, but I hope maybe it helps someone out. I hope you all had an amazing
Valentine's day and I also hope you know it is okay if you didn't. Maybe in a year or two you will be writing about how it gets better, at least I hope you feewl that way because you deserve to be happy!

with love, thefloralwitch

What a New Year

Something about me that you will probably learn from this blog is that I absolutely LOVE quotes. I am a sarcastic b**** most of the time, but if you actually get to know me you will know I am quite an emotional person who has a crippling weakness for inspiring quotes. Not all of them though, I refuse to admit that I like silly quotes like "all you need is love" and such, but I like more than I would care to admit.

Anyway, I eventually would like to make a spot on my blog for the quote of the day or week or something, but at this point I don't really know how.

Since it is New Years eve, I figured I should make some post about resolutions or something, but since it is almost time for my plans of the night, I don't really have time to write some motivational list of what I plan to improve about myself next year. This is where the cheesy quotes come in, I have a folder of pictures of quotes and such that I have saved from Tumblr on my computer and I thought it would be a good way to end the year by sharing some of my favorites.

I'm sorry if the layout isn't great, but, like I said, I really don't know how to work this yet.
Also I don't own any of these photos, they are all saved from Tumblr.

I hope you enjoyed these and I hope you have an amazing New Years celebration and an even better year! 

I know that holidays like this can be hard for people for a variety of reasons, for me it is my anxiety/depression/family issues that make celebrating hard, but I hope that you all know that you are loved and there are people that care about you! You deserve to have a good time, so let any pain you are holding onto go, and enjoy yourself!

with love, thefloralwitch